Like everyone else in this Earth, I wish that life is easy. I’m not sure what’s going on but apparently, I was having some sort of life crisis where I questioned about everything. Including things, I have done in the past. Turning to the last 2-ish age this year has definitely changed my perspective toward life. Of course, if I can turn back the time I would love to change a few things but I also aware that whatever had happened in the past has helped to shape me into what I am today.
Go Out, Explore & Do Not Settle Early
You know when they say, you have to enjoy as much as you can without wasting your youth life. I shrugged that advice in the past. Sometimes, I ashamedly regret that I didn’t let myself out and enjoy more. Though, I understand why I was not be able to do so. It’s because of my conservative family background. When I was younger, I only have 3 things in mind: study hard to get good job, find partner and get married. That’s how my community has shaped my mindset into. I was set to marry at the age of 25 or people may call me the ‘old-unwanted lady’. Though at the end, I’ve learnt things the hard way. Hey, look where I am now, 29 and unmarried and still proud.
Take That Green ‘Independence’ Card ASAP
I was raised in big and conservative family where some of my family member still believe that woman doesn’t need higher education because we are meant to stay at home. Despite the mindset, my parents trust me enough to do well in school and further my degree in Kuala Lumpur. I’m the first (and a woman, at that) that graduate with Bachelor Degree in my big family. Secretly, I wish I’m brave enough to venture out early to inspired some of my cousins to take initiative to go out and explore the world.
Ditched The Toxic People In My Life
Back in my younger day, I was well known to be the people pleaser. Always a yes, hardly no. Some people who called themselves as my ‘friends’ took advantages of that. I truly hate to disappoint people, let it be friends or family. Also a reason why I stayed too long in toxic relationship. Its not until few years later that I come to realized that I live better without such people in my life. I wish I realized it sooner. Perhaps my mental state would be so much better now.
Despite being the old ‘happy go lucky’ gal, I always put others first before my own self. If I could do thing differently back then, I will always make sure that I’m happy with all the decisions that I have made in life. My happiness will always be my top priority. Honestly, I wonder how different it will be if I love myself more in my younger day. Perhaps, I will still be the ‘happy go lucky’ Fay? Self-care practice, despite the ages gap is extremely important. Please remember to take a good care of your own self guys.
Almost Everything Including Pain is Temporary, Move On and Things Will Get Better
A FREAKING HUGE YES. How I wish I can slap my young self with these words so I won’t be so hard on myself. Whenever bad things happened, I always blame on myself. I keep on asking what have I done or what I have not yet done. Sometimes, things are meant to fall apart. This how life is. One day you are on top and the next day you are on the bottom. No matter how hard it is at that particular moment, always remember that ‘things will get better’. A 25 years old Fay needed that hard slap though.
If you are in your early 20’s and find yourself lost, perhaps these 5 things that I wish I can do differently can help you somehow. Each years as we learn from past life mistakes, we are growing. Of course, I can simply wish I can do things differently. Yet, deep down I know that each mistakes was needed to build a stronger and better self. Hopefully the future Fay with the big 3-ish will do much better with these 2018 goals. xo