So, I recently celebrated my official 29th birthday and I was contemplating to write a long ass blog post about what I feel, how am I doing and what’s next. Basically, a current life update. This is a very long overdue impromptu
rant talk Coffee Talk. Might as well grab your coffee (…or any preferable drink) with snack.
The final 20-ish and how I feel about it
I won’t lie and say I cannot wait being in the 30’s. Some part of me is excited for next year but other is scare like hell. I’m mostly excited to snatched myself a husband. Its cool that I got to introduce my partner as my fiance now. I bet it will be more awesome to say “Hi, this is my husband.” and clutched his arm tightly. I hope he will be a good boy dealing with bitches who like other women’s man. He better be because yours truly no longer play around with second chance card. Bitch is bitter now.
Alright, back to the “being in the late 20’s”. What scare me the most is stability – am I emotionally, physically and financially stable for the next chapter in my life? You may saw me showcasing a very happy and stable life on my social media but behind the scene, I am still struggling. I have so many worry and anxiety about future. Too much that sometime I just want to sleep all day without thinking. Being an adult is so damn hard.
Blogging direction – what’s next?
I like how my blogging path is going at the moment. There are many opportunity came by and I hardly say NO. However, there is this nagging feeling inside of me that made me think of my blog direction – its somehow affected the way I write my post and even post that I want to share.
Being one of the lucky blogger appointed as Althea angels has open more opportunity. Some already dub me as the “Beauty blogger” because my content has shifted to beauty related in these past few months. Although I share beauty related content, I did not feel like I’m qualified as one. Simply because I did not dedicated my whole blog for beauty related post only.
I also write about food review which I’m fortunate to be invited to, sometime lifestyle/advise related post and even about my beloved KK city. With these kind of post that I have been writing, I finally decided to simply put my blog FFMDIGITALMEMOIRS as a Lifestyle blog.
Wedding preparation and have I turn bridezilla yet?
Alright, this is quite funny because whenever B and I went to social event, everyone will asked us when is the “big day”? To which we answer, hopefully by next year. I’m just going to be honest here, there’s no specific date yet (even though in our engagement contract, we have to be married by May 2019). Why – you may ask?
B and I came from different Christian’s denomination. Yes, we are both Christian but we are different. I’m born and raised as Catholic while B as PCS (or Protestant). Before we went and decided to be in committed relationship, we did discuss about this. The differences may be nothing to others but not to us. Its either break it or make it. My parents (who love their daughter so dearly and did not wish for her to be heart broken, again) wish or more likely sternly requesting us to get marry in Catholic church with the full wedding mass celebration.
Now, with B’s background, he have to go Sunday school and all in order for us to have full wedding mass (bless his soul, he’s the best!). Because we do not know how long its going to take for all of these to settle, we simply taking it slow. I mean, if God already open the door for us, surely each step that we take is going to be great. At the moment, I’m simply soaking the post-engagement-moon bliss while checking all the necessary bridal/photographer/catering/wedding theme and whatnot.
So, to answer the second question – I have not yet turned into Bridezilla. My soon-to-be-husband is thankful for it.
Dealing with stress and work related issues
2018 could be the best yet the worst year in my 6 years of working life. I have been contemplating to move so many time yet I did not. Its was non stop full blown stress since early year. Taking up new challenge is definitely not an easy task. As at this moment, I come to realized that I really love taking challenge and prove that I can do it. Whenever the excitement died, stress pour in and I wish to run away.
Solution? I’m waiting for better offer. Plus, I would love to try something new. Maybe after the wedding when all the chaos went down. 🙂
Getting back into the fitness game, slowly
With wedding and my current weight being the heaviest at the moment, I have decided to slap my self in the face and get back into the fitness routine. Part of me don’t really mind the weight but I know how my health have been deteriorating for the past few years. So, its game on! (…pst, wish me luck)
Plus, I have few great friends who currently in the same journey of healthy living and losing weight. They will be my source of motivation and inspiration.
So, are you still into Minimalism?
Of course with all the collaboration that I have been doing these past few months and all the products I have received for review purpose had me thinking. Mostly thinking about what people think about me – oh, she received products this and that, did she keep it? Does that makes her a collector? Not a minimalist?
Alright, I get that all these questions came out from my own self. I was doubting myself – am I minimalist enough? Is agreeing to collaboration in exchange of products review is a minimalist way? I don’t even understand what’s the minimalist way, anyway. So, to answer that question – YES, I’m still practicing minimalist lifestyle.
I’m trying to work out things around. Best I can possibility do to ensure that I’m sticking to my chosen lifestyle. Plus, stress free and guilt free. As long as I am happy, right?
Wow. I didn’t expect this post to be superb lengthy. If you have made it to the end – well, congratulation and thank you for reading. I feel so much better now. xo